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      28 Jan 2010

      Evil - do you believe that some people are truly evil?

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      Evil seems to mean different concepts to different people, even from the same household.  Dictionary.com and a number of other sites had trouble writing what it means without using the word itself.

      I do believe that their is some evil prescience in many people.  The work of the psychiatric world is shifting what for years was called, "Sociopath" but now, the profession, in order to clarify what is means is moving toward a term most of have heard or used, but in most cases it wasn't meant to for real.  It is called a narcissistic personality disorder.

      The basic run-down on how one may be diagnosed as a narcissistic personality they must:  (from http://psychcentral.com/disorders/sx36.htm ):

      In order for a person to be diagnosed with narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) they must meet five or more of the following symptoms:

      • Has a grandiose sense of self-importance (e.g., exaggerates achievements and talents, expects to be recognized as superior without commensurate achievements)
      • Is preoccupied with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love
      • Believes that he or she is "special" and unique and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people (or institutions)
      • Requires excessive admiration
      • Has a sense of entitlement, i.e., unreasonable expectations of especially favorable treatment or automatic compliance with his or her expectations
      • Is interpersonally exploitative, i.e., takes advantage of others to achieve his or her own ends
      • Lacks empathy: is unwilling to recognize or identify with the feelings and needs of others
      • Is often envious of others or believes that others are envious of him or her
      • Shows arrogant, haughty behaviors or attitudes.
      This is disturbing information.  Just the word Sociopath was scary, but the term narcissist may be applied to many people, yet, they probably do not meet 5 of the above mentioned list.  I can say that I have truly met one and worked with that person for a short time.  It was the total inability to feel empathy for anyone in any situation which was most disturbing.  It always was about how the event - be it funeral or wedding - would affect him.  And, yes, as I saw more and more of this person's personality come out, I distinctest myself from him. Not due to fear, but just how miserable who could make anyone feel as long as he got what he wanted would affect everyones' plans.

      Five years later he was charged and convicted of throwing his 6 month baby boy against a window from the second floor room.  The baby, he told police, was disturbing, by crying, some show he was watching.  The mother, who had worked a bit late, and stopped by the grocery store came home to this horror and great loss of life.

      They had known each other since Junior High, and had never really dated anyone else.  He got a BA in, of all things, philosophy, and she was a registered nurse.  I shivered when I read the article.  It seemed so very real and so very possible.  How she did not see it or somehow he hid it from here, baffles me.  It is much like the Rubik's Cube (solve it), how does this man look normal - the pieces in place, when he cares only for himself.

      It seems that it is quite usual for a person with narcissistic personality disorder to be a high achiever, wanting an elevated position in his work, his community, and, certainly his family.

      Back to EVIL - is there an opposite?  And, is a person with narcissistic personality disorder born with it or does it form from home life, some brain disorder, maybe even some virus which gets in to the person early in their years and as they grow, the personality disorder takes over the brain.

      If that is the case, can the person be medicated to health or maybe some sort of brain surgery.  Or, does evil, from how ever it does enter the person's continue to develop and become stronger, as in a war within the soul?  Or, does it all happen fairly quickly and we have one of these evil people.

      Question: is there a counter word to evil - something that describes the opposite person?  Is this from God, or from nature, or from some emotional issues when the person was a child.

      One of the reasons I bring this up is that there is a television program which doesn't show a lot of blood and guts, but it is one of the most disturbing horror or police programs I have ever seen,"Criminal Minds."  It is a scary, disturbing, and very near being called a horror program.  I usually can't stick through too many of those shows for very long. But, the writing and the acting and all of it, make it almost impossible to watch, though there rarely are images of the victims.  I compare it another program, where evil enters, but it is more about the personalities and the science of the case of the episode -which is called "Bones," which I had never seen until this January.

      That's it, just a comparison on how evil is handled by television and movies, even books.  Thoughts, anyone?
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      23 Jan 2010

      Be honest,need an inexpensive forget it all retreat? www.atriptoparadise.com the paradise where work falls away from mind

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      23 Jan 2010

      Our villa pet at www.atriptoparadise.com, Sam, the iguana friendly, loves people & fresh fruit which grows around villa

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      23 Jan 2010

      Friends at www.atriptoparadise creating memories 4 a lifetime

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      23 Jan 2010

      1pool shot, pre-redecorating, our morning friend waiting for banana & coffee

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      vacation, paradise, paradise, Costa Rica, rest, break, eco land, ecology
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      23 Jan 2010

      Damn, I am Lucky. This Relationship Rocks!

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      Just finishing another zip line run near our house in Costa Rica

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      22 Jan 2010

      Better said, the truth of today's Supreme Court ruling by Keith Oberman

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      I watch this episode and I felt relief, someone else saw it for what it was, for the major networks didn't delve in deep, not if they plan to stick around.  So, to better say what I have tried to illiterate in my last post, I am copying the text of the Special Message from Mr. Oberman.

      SPECIAL COMMENT 
      By Keith Olbermann
      Anchor, 'Countdown'
      msnbc.com
      updated 9:29 p.m. ET, Thurs., Jan. 21, 2010

      Finally tonight, as promised, a Special Comment on the Supreme Court's ruling today in the case titled "Citizens United v. Federal Election Commission."

      On the cold morning of Friday, March 6th, 1857, a very old man who was born just eight months and thirteen days after the Declaration of Independence was adopted; a man who was married to the sister of the man who wrote "The Star Spangled Banner;" a man who was enlightened enough to have freed his own slaves and given pensions to the ones who had become too old to work read aloud, in a reed-thin voice, a very long document.

      In it, he ruled on a legal case involving a slave, brought by his owner to live in a free state; yet to remain a slave.

      The slave sought his freedom, and sued. And looking back over legal precedent, and the Constitution, and the America in which it was created, this judge ruled that no black man could ever be considered an actual citizen of the United States.

      "They had for more than a century before been, regarded as beings of an inferior order, and altogether unfit to associate with the white race, either in social or political relations, and so far unfit, that they had no rights which the white man was bound to respect."

      The case, of course, was Dred Scott. The old man was the fifth Chief Justice of the United States of America, Roger Brooke Tawney. And the outcome, he believed, would be to remove the burning question of the abolition of slavery from the political arena for once and for all.

      The outcome, in fact, was the Civil War. No American ever made a single bigger misjudgment. No American ever carried the responsibility for the deaths and suffering of more Americans. No American ever was more quickly vilified. Within four years Chief Justice Tawney's rulings were being ignored in the South and the North.

      Within five, President Lincoln at minimum contemplated arresting him. Within seven, he died, in poverty, while still Chief Justice. Within eight, Congress had voted to not place a bust of him alongside those of the other former Chief Justices.

      But good news tonight, Roger B. Tawney is off the hook.

      Today, the Supreme Court, of Chief Justice John Roberts, in a decision that might actually have more dire implications than "Dred Scott v Sandford," declared that because of the alchemy of its 19th Century predecessors in deciding that corporations had all the rights of people, any restrictions on how these corporate-beings spend their money on political advertising, are unconstitutional.

      In short, the first amendment — free speech for persons — which went into affect in 1791, applies to corporations, which were not recognized as the equivalents of persons until 1886. In short, there are now no checks on the ability of corporations or unions or other giant aggregations of power to decide our elections.

      None. They can spend all the money they want. And if they can spend all the money they want — sooner, rather than later — they will implant the legislators of their choice in every office from President to head of the Visiting Nurse Service.

      And if senators and congressmen and governors and mayors and councilmen and everyone in between are entirely beholden to the corporations for election and re-election to office soon they will erase whatever checks there might still exist to just slow down the ability of corporations to decide the laws.    

      It is almost literally true that any political science fiction nightmare you can now dream up, no matter whether you are conservative or liberal, it is now legal. Because the people who can make it legal, can now be entirely bought and sold, no actual citizens required in the campaign-fund-raising process.

      And the entirely bought and sold politicians, can change any laws. And any legal defense you can structure now, can be undone by the politicians who will be bought and sold into office this November, or two years from now.

      And any legal defense which honest politicians can somehow wedge up against them this November, or two years from now, can be undone by the next even larger set of politicians who will be bought and sold into office in 2014, or 2016, or 2018.

      Mentioning Lincoln's supposed ruminations about arresting Roger B. Tawney, he didn't say the original of this, but what the hell:

      Right now, you can prostitute all of the politicians some of the time, and prostitute some of the politicians all the time, but you cannot prostitute all the politicians all the time. Thanks to Chief Justice Roberts this will change. Unless this mortal blow is somehow undone, within ten years, every politician in this country will be a prostitute.

      And now let's contemplate what that perfectly symmetrical, money-driven world might look like. Be prepared, first, for laws criminalizing or at least neutering unions. In today's Court Decision, they are the weaker of the non-human sisters unfettered by the Court. So, like in ancient Rome or medieval England, they will necessarily be strangled by the stronger sibling, the corporations, so they pose no further threat to the Corporations' total control of our political system.

      Be prepared, then, for the reduction of taxes for the wealth, and for the corporations, and the elimination of the social safety nets for everybody else, because money spent on the poor means less money left for the corporations.

      Be prepared, then, for wars sold as the "new products" which Andy Card once described them as,  year-after-year, as if they were new Fox Reality Shows, because Military Industrial Complex Corporations are still corporations. Be prepared, then, for the ban on same-sex marriage, on abortion, on evolution, on separation of church and state. The most politically agitated group of citizens left are the evangelicals, throw them some red meat to feed their holier-than-thou rationalizations, and they won't care what else you do to this corporate nation.

      Be prepared, then, for racial and religious profiling, because you've got to blame somebody for all the reductions in domestic spending and civil liberties, just to make sure the agitators against the United Corporate States of America are kept unheard.

      Be prepared for those poor dumb manipulated bastards, the Tea Partiers, to have a glorious few years as the front men as the corporations that bankroll them slowly unroll their total control of our political system. And then be prepared to watch them be banished, maybe outlawed, when a few of the brighter ones suddenly realize that the corporations have made them the Judas Goats of American Freedom.

      And be prepared, then, for the bank reforms that President Obama has just this day vowed to enable, to be rolled back by his successor purchased by the banks, with the money President Bush gave them his successor, presumably President Palin, because if you need a friendly face of fascism, you might as well get one that can wink, and if you need a tool of whichever large industries buy her first, you might as well get somebody who lives up to that word "tool."

      Be prepared for the little changes, too. If there are any small towns left to take-over, Wal-Mart can now soften them up with carpet advertising for their Wal-Mart town council candidates, brought to you by Wal-Mart.

      Be prepared for the Richard Mellon Scaifes to drop such inefficiencies as vanity newspapers and simply buy and install their own city governments in the Pittsburghs. Be prepared for the personally wealthy men like John Kerry to become the paupers of the Senate, or the ones like Mike Bloomberg not even surviving the primary against Halliburton's choice for Mayor of New York City.

      Be prepared for the end of what you're watching now. I don't just mean me, or this program, or this network. I mean all the independent news organizations, and the propagandists like Fox for that matter, because Fox inflames people against the state, and after today's ruling, the corporations will only need a few more years of inflaming people, before the message suddenly shifts to "everything's great."

      Glenn Beck and Rush Limbaugh don't even realize it: today, John Roberts just cut their throats too. So, with critics silenced or bought off, and even the town assessor who lives next door to you elected to office with campaign funds 99.9 percent drawn from corporate coffers — what are you going to do about it? The Internet!

      The Internet? Ask them about the Internet in China. Kiss net neutrality goodbye. Kiss whatever right to privacy you think you currently have, goodbye. And anyway, what are you going to complain about, if you don't even know it happened? In the new world unveiled this morning by John Roberts, who stops Rupert Murdoch from buying the Associated Press?

      This decision, which in mythology would rank somewhere between "The Bottomless Pit" and "The Opening Of Pandora's Box," got next to no coverage in the right-wing media today, almost nothing in the middle, and a lot less than necessary on the left.

      The right wing won't even tell their constituents that they are being sold into bondage alongside the rest of us. And why should they? For them, the start of this will be wonderful.

      The Republicans, Conservatives, Joe Liebermans, and Tea Partiers are in the front aisle at the political prostitution store. They are specially discounted old favorites for their Corporate Masters. Like the first years of irreversible climate change, for the conservatives the previously cold winter will grow delightfully warm. Only later will it be hot. Then unbearable. Then flames.

      And the conservatives will burn with the rest of us. And they'll never know it happened. So, what are you going to do about it? Turn to free speech advocates? These were the free speech advocates! The lawyer for that Humunculous who filed this suit, Dave Bossie, is Floyd Abrams.

      Floyd Abrams, who has spent his life defending American freedoms, especially freedom of speech. Apparently this life was spent this way in order to guarantee that when it really counted, he could help the corporations destroy free speech.

      His argument, translated from self-satisfied legal jargon, is that as a function of the First Amendment, you must allow for the raping and pillaging of the First Amendment, by people who can buy the First Amendment.

      He will go down in the history books as the Quisling of freedom of speech in this country. That is if the corporations who now buy the school boards which decide which history books get printed, approve. If there are still history books. So, what are you going to do about it?

      Russ Feingold told me today there might yet be ways to work around this, to restrict corporate governance, and how corporations make and spend their money. I pointed out that any such legislation, even if it somehow sneaked past the last U.S. Senate not funded by a generous gift from the Chubb Group would eventually wind up in front of a Supreme Court, and whether or not John Roberts is still at its head would be irrelevant.

      The next nine men and women on the Supreme Court will get there not because of their judgement nor even their politics. They will get there because they were appointed by purchased presidents and confirmed by purchased Senators.

      This is what John Roberts did today. This is a Supreme Court-sanctioned murder of what little actual Democracy is left in this Democracy. It is government of the people by the corporations for the corporations. It is the Dark Ages. It is our Dred Scott. I would suggest a revolution but a revolution against the corporations? The corporations that make all the guns and the bullets?

      Maybe it won't be this bad. Maybe the corporations legally defined as human beings, but without the pesky occasional human attributes of conscience and compassion maybe when handed the only keys to the electoral machine, they will simply not re-design America in their own corporate image.

      But let me leave you with this final question: After today who's going to stop them?

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      21 Jan 2010

      Was it a win or a loss or a toss-up for citizens today?

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      The Supreme Court has ruled that a corporation, including a one person corporation can give as much money to support their preferred candidates.  Though, as individuals we still have our limits on what we can give.  Already, since the reading of the ruling, over 100,000 corporations are being formed. This is all about the First Amendment, though, we can only guess as to why certain members of Congress feel they need hundreds of millions of dollars to become an elected official.  It seems so similar to an athlete on steroids.  "I don't have the right stuff to win and make my money for my friends, so,  will let them toss in a few million to make sure I get there."

      Since the First Amendment will be coming up a lot, I first suggest you read the rules for creation and passing of an amendment.  Then read this simple text from what some would say was a simpliar time, but we know it was not.  They were risking their lives and they didn't take deferments.


      Amendment I

      Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances.

      As a true First Amendment (click the link, the words are powerful) buff, I, in some way see the ruling as proper.  But, as a citizen I feel disgusted.  It is worse, as many have said, as bad as the Dread Scott Case.  To see a number of Senators extolling the virtues of this First Amendment win, saying that for too long we have kept proper voters from having a say in the election - meaning any corporation, including those with up to 49% of assets off of our shores.

      Luckily, this is truly a non-partisan issue.  For people who are strict constitutionalists, this is a victory, but, as many have said, it is correct, but "immoral."  A number of dissenters from each party quipped that no longer would it be the Senator from Nebraska, but the Senator from Exxon - and that was the company cited as being left out of the election process.

      With this being a non-partisan issue, there is a already a slew of bills which will help make this more palatable, even by those who agreed with the decision.  Some would like to open up the Constitution by either passing an amendment or, God forbid, having a Constitutional Convention.

      It will take most of us some time to see how this takes the meaning of your vote and gets rid of it, it doesn't matter.  You can't fight a $1,000,000,000 in company funds to get a president elected.  It just can't happen, or so I fear.  I plan to look closely at how this turns out.  But, first I have to get the disgust out of my mind be hearing the most inane Republican Senator saying that these companies have been left out, and this was a Senator who in an interview, still thought a poll tax was fair. 

      United States citizens, hang on, it is going to be a bumpy ride.  And, I believe that this kills any health care changes, any potential for a draft so it isn't just the poor fighting - no, let me correct that statement.  It is way off base.  Many of our troops joined and they come from everywhere, but the other 85% U.S. Army, come from the inner cities.  I apologize deeply for implying I know why someone volunteers for military duty.  I assume, that most of it is out of love of country, but much of it is out of needing to leave the places where the elected try never to go, until President Obama. 

      I listen to many of the super patriotic, have your flag pin on or you are a communist, brag about how long this democracy - the Grand Experiment, has lasted.  Well, it is getting up there with how long many of the great empires lasted.  We are not immune to being taken over with by big business.

      And, for me, this is a tough place, I am all for the First Amendment, and I have listening to those who say it does not fall under that amendment, but I am not sure.  So, this is why we can the three branches of our government.  There is a lot the Congress can do to make this more palatable, such as disclosing how much money was spent by which company on adds which did not claim to endorse a particular person, but were geared to all of his/her policies.  Can it happen, depends on people like Florida's Congressman Alan Grayson.  Last week he had already written for consideration five bills to go before committee in the House, they are in his words, from his Congressional Web site, plus, enumerated on at least six talk shows:

      Here are the bills that Congressman Grayson has introduced, and what they aim to accomplish:

      1)  The Business Should Mind Its Own Business Act (H.R. 4431):  Implements a 500% excise tax on corporate contributions to political committees, and on corporate expenditures on political advocacy campaigns.
      2)  The Public Company Responsibility Act (H.R. 4435):  Prevents companies making political contributions and expenditures from trading their stock on national exchanges.
      3)  The End Political Kickbacks Act (H.R. 4434):  Prevents for-profit corporations that receive money from the government from making political contributions, and limits the amount that employees of those companies can contribute. 
      4)  The Corporate Propaganda Sunshine Act (H.R. 4432):  Requires publicly-traded companies to disclose in SEC filings money used for the purpose of influencing public opinion, rather than to promoting their products and services.
      5)  The Ending Corporate Collusion Act (H.R. 4433):  Applies antitrust law to industry PACs. 

      The Supreme Court decision in Citizens United vs. Federal Election Commission legalizes the use of corporate funds in political campaigns, striking down campaign finance laws that date back more than a century.  Congressman Grayson introduced the bills on January 13th, in anticipation of the Supreme Court's ruling.  Each of the five Grayson bills is clear and concise; none is longer than four pages.

      “By gutting the 100-year-old Tillman Act ban on corporate contributions, the U.S. Supreme Court has opened the door to political bribery and corruption on the largest scale imaginable. As Teddy Roosevelt said at the time, 'property belongs to man, and not man to property.'  That's why we have federal election laws, and that's why we need them, both then and now,” Congressman Grayson said.

      I urge you, and yes, I know how busy we all are, but read the Constitution by yourself or with your class or your children.  You don't have to support the decision or be against the decision to show what a truly major ruling this is for these United States of America.  And, if in the District of Columbia, go and look at this magnificent document.  And see why people such as I who hold that First Amendment dear still fear the outcome of the ruling.  It changes more than a century of Constitutional law.  Things can be correct and honestly so, yet they can hurt a nation and its people beyond what most of us believe.  

      Have this talk with your friends, family - this isn't politics - this is our electoral process at stake. This is a very good starting point: http://www.archives.gov/exhibits/charters/constitution.html, but, for more history, go back to before the Constitution was the Government for the people and by the people.  There is no left or right when reading these documents, it is about becoming informed and turning off the radio of the bunch of entertainers who have made a perfect job: they give you someone to hate because of our lot in life.  And, they lie and distort the truth.  And the worst thing about it, is that the voters do NOT challenge them on it.  We do not do our critical thinking to see if what they are saying makes sense, follows their past voting record - such as former Governor Palin, probably a very nice person, yet, no one checked to see that she begged for that bridge to no where until the light shined on her and she was against it, and trust me, this type of thing knows no party.  It is the festering puss of an election system finally broken.

      Please, take some time, read with your kids, your spouses, yourself, and keep your politics out of it and enjoy the wonderful language of these documents.  Imagine a document, which a country actually runs on, beginning this way:

      We the People of the United States, in Order to form a more perfect Union, establish Justice, insure domestic Tranquility, provide for the common defense, promote the general Welfare, and secure the Blessings of Liberty to ourselves and our Posterity, do ordain and establish this Constitution for the United States of America.

      Some words from a man who is passionate in his loyalty to this country.  Please watch: http://tinyurl.com/yemmx2y

       

       

       

       

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      20 Jan 2010

      Experience is not always a pleasant event

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      A program I was watching this evening ended with a favorite C. S. Lewis saying: Experience is a brutal teacher.  But you learn, my God, you learn.

      The truth to that is so obvious, yet so easy to forget.  When in the middle of a new experience, it is hard to see it as a another friggin growth opturtunity. (AFGO, as I like to call them), at times.  Sometimes, well, it is more like climbing a chained linked fence with a layer of barbed wire on top.  In can be scaled, but the effort on the first try, not having the correct tools, the right state of mind, the support that many challenges require one to be a fast learner and one who can push themselves to accomplish that task.

      It was played at the end of the CBS program, Criminal Minds. It is a program that knows how to portray evil in many forms.  To me, it is one of the toughest, yet most fascinating programs to watch.  It explores evil without having to always show the gore that may or may not be a part of evil.  We know that evil can come in may forms, possibly, at times through ourselves.

      I was thinking about this today.  I should be having a pretty major surgery next week, yet they need another of the 20 or so CT scans that I have had this year.  Notice the tone in my voice?  It is not thankful that I can do this, that I still, for now, have insurance to to do this.  For me, this is when the evil wants to come out, but I want to hurt myself, take myself out of the game, for good.

      No, I don't do it.  Though, I gave it one hell of a chance a few months back and I found no solace in the truly near completion of the act.  It didn't seem selfish, for no one could know the pain I was and am in.  I was not apologetic to anyone, other than the desperation and panic it left them in, especially my partner.  It took  its tolls on a lot of people.  Was it evil?  I don't think so, though, I learned from the experience and as this post started, But you learn, my God, you learn.

      Now, I know how to seek help from those so willing to give it to me. Yet, I live my life feeling like a burden to everyone and the fact that with my life insurance I am worth more to them dead than alive on a strictly financial point of view.  Often, I believe it would that leads to less stress for them and a better life each day.  I also know that my leaving, in any way, will not really improve their lot in life.  For, the energy which flows with love and between our souls is greater than a financial reward, of any sort.  It is a bond that should be cherished and recognized.  I can do that now.

      Lewis had it correct: Experience is a brutal teacher.  But you learn, my God, you learn.

      P. S. I looked up the definition of "evil," and it is almost impossible to find one that doesn't rely on the word itself in its description.  Which to me shows the power that evil is all about.

       

       

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      19 Jan 2010

      We keep going on with our lives ....

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      as we should. It feels so odd, we move along, doing things we do each day, as we should.  Yet, at times it is difficult for me at times to push out of my mind the horrors of what was Haiti (and what I believe will be Haiti again and soon).  I, as we all do, have to keep moving on, getting to work, working out, shoveling snow, taking the kids to play dates; and, for me, get prepped for what is one of five major surgeries for me over the next few years.  My cancer is in remission, but the damage to get it there is ... hell, I don't know how to explain it.  The pain is at a level that even with the best medications, acupuncture and more and more is at some word which I don't know.  For me, it goes off all scales.  This first surgery will be either at the end of this week or early next week, for it takes a couple of particular doctors to handle this one.  And, the main result, the lessening of pain, may or may not work, but will most likely leave me incontinent - Pampers at 50!

      Even the thought of the surgery leaves a guilt feeling in my gut.  I will be in a well sterilized operating room.  Assuming the it goes fine, I will have spent - well, my insurance company and me, will have spent enough money to feed thousands of those in Haiti and in parts of this great, but not perfect, country.

      At times, it feels as if we are a poor as one can be - hell, that is a disgusting and revolting thought.  Sure, after medical bills, regular bills, insurance premiums, our mortgage, and a bit of food, we were tapped out early this month.  But, I have always had a personal long term disability policy, it kicked in 5 months ago, it isn't much, for, I forgot to keep the payout equal or close to my earnings.  It is about 1/5 of what I would normally make, and, someday, Social Security Disability, after over 7 months must start up, I would think. 

      And, that show how much I AN NOT NEAR BEING POOR.  I have family.  I have a wonderful partner.  I have friends.  I have a spiritual Higher Spirit.  I am anything but poor, lonely, or frightened - okay, I do have to say that I am frightened.  But, not just about my health.  It is about the health of this country and world.  I see the arrogance and truly mean spirited words coming from those who have done nothing to help this country, except they have a microphone and they can bash away with impunity and, this is where I get scared, people listen to these toxic wastes of human tissue and believe what they hear.  They have never had to do any thinking for them.  They just believe these ghastly things - heads spewing hatred - for hatred, making us afraid of something gives them power.  If we stopped being afraid, others might have insurance as do, though, soon the premium rates will be too high and I will be without.

      If I hear someone saying they "know" something that is like, "the White House link to the Red Cross is a way for them to get the money and your email address."  I ask them how they found that out.  Oh, so so said it on the radio.  I push harder, but how do you know.  And the same answer is all they can give.  They don't know how to think.

      I, we, could go on and on about all of the above.  How about if we just try to make one person's life a bit easier tomorrow - that's it, pretty easy.  Do it and don't let them know it, just do it and let it be.  Let it be.....

       

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    A bit more about me ...

    First, this is not an ego trip via a blog, or two blogs in this case.

    If you are at www.stephencarey.com, you will find some of the lessons I have learned and am still learning, as I first faced a six year battle with cancer, and now continue to deal with the severe chronic pain, plus the various operations to repair things damaged by the treatments I chose.

    In this six year battle with cancer, which is only now considered in remission, I was on a rough chemo drug, meaning I gave myself an injection every day for a year, then, four months on, three months off. Now, I take a less physically draining chemo drug, but in pill form. One that I will be on for as long as I live. The amazing thing about this drug is that the bald head in the picture (which was there), is now out of date. It seems this drug grows baby hair on the top of the head. Then, the baby hair seems to give way to normal adult hair, which matches what was there a decade ago. Kind of cool, but not earth shattering, for I would give up the drug if I thought I could keep the cancer away.

    If you happen to be on www.stephencarey.net, you will see that, first, it needs work, a direction. At this time it is really a series of random posts, they are good and noteworthy, but they do not tell a story,

    Finally, I have found the direction I want to take with www.stephencarey.net, which is a voyage, via the Internet, to experience the many voices from around the world which now have a platform on which to be heard.

    The TRUTH about this blog:

    It is not meant as a pathway to let my ego and id run rampant.

    Yet, we (me) seem to want to share a bit about ourselves to the world. Actually, that statement is silly. There is no "world" to see this.

    It may be seen by a few friends and others as they sift through all of the silliness and seriousness which can be found on the Web. But, it is not the world. The many tribes in the Amazon region don't give one thought about any of this. Those not fortunate enough to even put food on the table do not care about this. Somehow, it seems to be a way to belong; and, for me, a way to stay connected to technology, which I do love to learn about. But, more, I want to learn about the issues of this planet's citizens. I just like learning, and, with the Internet I am afforded a path to learn all I dare to take on.

    Plus, just discuss some of the issues I see us wrestling with and my perspective, not always popular, on them.

    One last site:

    Let's start at where we go to recharge after physical therapy, chemo, work, or just because we need to leave our home for our taste of heaven. Our place to relax is in Costa Rica. It is a very special country, with amazing citizens, from whom I continue my education of how we all live.

    For us, this is perfection. Take a look:
    http://www.atriptoparadise.com Yes, there can be heaven on Earth.
    Please take the time, read a bit and feel free to make an honest comment.

    All the best, and as you travel the Web, I wish you traveling mercies.

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